死心？

倒数77个小时（从我开始写这篇东西算起~）就可以搭巴士回家了~其实算蛮快了；不过，
这70多个小时会过得非常痛苦......因为还得面对两张考试~
今早又考玩一张，感觉非常糟糕。不敢想象后面两张会“发展”得怎样，毕竟这三张，今早那张我比较放心。怎知.............咳............
是我对自己的期望太高？太看得起自己？我不懂~我只想考到好一点的成绩~（虽然大家都说好成绩不代表什么。）不过有好成绩对我来说是一种安全感~对未来的安全感~
早上考完后，以为会非常的伤心，会像再上一张一样，失望到想哭~不过，失望归失望，我竟然一点想哭的感觉都没有~是我已经心灰意冷了吗？还是我潜意识里已经对这三科完全死心，完全不在乎了？
才第二学期叻~我就已经这么的不堪一击~以后的六个学期，我该怎样挨下去呢？CIMA还该不该拿呢？会计这条路还该不该继续呢？我真的没方向感了~
在此，想声明一件事..........我没你们从我表面上看起来的那么坚强！

tension!!!!!!!!!

Aaaaaaaaa..very suffer arrr…..
first time feel so suffer and tension during exam, even during SPM and STPM I also did not feel so..
another paper was over, but I think the result will be quite bad. hmmm… the last 3 accounting papers..haiz..speechless…
don’t know why, I feel that today everything is not smooth. This make me suddenly feel want to cry as loudly as I can but the tears just keep rolling in the eyes, can’t drop.
thus, decided to take dinner earlier so that can watch drama earlier. (as you know, usually i will cry while watching drama.) who know, after watch for 2 episodes, not even a drop of tears roll down from my eyes!!!
I just want to cry to release my tension, why don’t let me???!!!!

anything that can release my tension??anyithing that can make me feel better??or anything can make cry???
now need face my account note again……………………………………………………….