welcome 2012

perm my hair yesterday to welcome a brand new 2012~
until now i still can't 100% accept that i have changed my hair style!! from rebonding to curled~
still not sure whether i will regret, but i need to be with this hair style for at least half to one year..i guess will be ok bah...
most of the comment said that i look mature in new hair style..but i prefer to be a kid!! XD
whatever..everything must has the 1st try..hope this 1st try will not make me crazy for the coming 2012~hahaha...

2012。随影366

各位喜欢摄影的朋友或同学 ：
我受到一位朋友的影响 及 看到一篇文章后 我决定从1月1日开始 进行一项计划 我命名为【2012。随影366】 在这个计划下 我会每天都拍摄一张照片 作为一项心情的记录 并会Post在FB 这里
所谓"随影" 就是那种很随意随心随意 看到什么就拍什么的 也可以代表你当天的心情故事 不必讲求技巧技术的 也无需要有很专业相机 只是一台轻便相机 也无妨的
我们或许也可以在每个月后 也许在咖啡厅kopitiam 举行小小聚会 交流照片及分享心情故事 一切都是那么随意的 
不知有谁有兴趣一起进行这样的【2012。随影366】的计划呢？

这真的是一项很有趣的活动~读到这post时，有一股冲动想要有所行动。
不过，几秒钟后，我觉得我应该会三分钟热度！呵呵~
原因，我懒惰！
证据：现在差不多sem 3要完了。可是，sem 2的照片都还没edit！

现在还要我每天post照片，写感想。可能一、两个星期还可以，要366天都这样……

都点困难~XD

况且，不是每天都得空，有时还会遇到一些突发状况上不到网。那么，那一天不就post不到照片了？我的电话又不可以post照片在fb~ （觉得这都是让我自己觉得好过些的借口~XP）

the very first memory....

feel a bit boring..
and start to delete those old old old sms..because i never delete them since i own this hand phone..
deleting while smiling..haha..i am kinda a crazy girl..
these are the very first sms you all sent me!

tears~

saw this photo from FB this evening..well..i think it is true..
those that know me well will know that my tears can drop so easily..not say that i can drop my tears anytime at anywhere within few seconds..what i mean is a small matter that can touch my heart, tears will start rolling in my eyes..
listen to a story, watch a drama series or movie or even a video clip, read novel or newspaper or even read a blog post can make my tears drop..
me myself also do not sure why i can cry so easily..but i found out that..my tears will drop faster when i am stress or tense..just like today..a normal sad scene in the drama series already made me wipe my tears for few times..until i nearly could not continue with my dinner..XD
well....i think it is just because the mid term exam is around the corner..last semester result forces me to work harder for this semester..i admit i am starting to force myself again..by the way..i will try to calm myself down this time..pressure does not make me to perform better..
alright..time to continue to fight with those accounting rules and regulation..to all my dearest friends..add oil and good luck!!! hope to see each other in the next semester DEAN list award ceremony..!!
(* shushien i can't post comment in your blog post..add oil ya for your sem 3 dean list~ =D)

失落

突然有种莫名奇妙的失落感......
不知道为什么......
是因为曾经渴望过、期待过？还是因为不甘心、不舍得当中的利益？
我真的不知道......
不喜欢这种感觉......
不喜欢做决定，尤其是放弃的决定......
去年也一样，今年也一样......
算了，明年再看看~

记忆？回忆？

何谓记忆？何谓回忆？
google了一下~

记忆是你生命中发生的事情你所记得的。
回忆是你对生命中所发生的事情进行的缅怀。
记忆是对自己亲身经历过的事情或通过某种媒介了解的知识的储存。
回忆是对自己亲身经历过的事情的复现。
记忆就是存在于大脑里的那些你还记得的事情。
回忆就是有意识的想起存在于大脑里的那些事情。
记忆是客观存在的。
回忆是想起那些客观存在的东西。
回忆是记忆的一部分，回忆要建立在记忆的基础上。


李圣杰-最近

你想要的我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想在约束
不要在痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路

facebook回顾去年这一天的status功能显示了这status...让我想起前几年的点点滴滴~
我还是相信不是我的错！我只认为那是我的不足！
好听的话后面一定会藏着一些心机~
没关系，当对坏人的误解让人揭开后，那个被定为坏人的，肯定会比那假好人当初得到的掌声还多上几倍~
我不怕被当成是坏人，因为当误会被解开后，我还可以是个好人~呵呵！
而事实上，我的例子在一些日子后，再度发生！
第一次，在我身上是我的错~ 第二次，在她身上还是她的错？那这位假好人还真厉害！
没关系，就当作是我们的错吧！
我等待第三次！

一起来看流星雨

用不到一个星期的时间看完“一起来看流星雨”这部中国偶像剧~ 一个字：爽！
“一起来看流星雨”是“流星花园”的中国版本。其实也忘了“流星花园”的剧情，得空得重看，比较比较一下~呵呵~

剧情简介：
楚雨荨是个品学兼优的高三女生，家境不富裕。她最大的梦想就是能入读有名的贵族大学—艾利斯顿商学院。在雨荨舅舅的帮助，雨荨顺利进入艾利斯顿。慕容云海、端木磊、上官瑞谦和叶烁是艾利斯顿的四大贵族子弟（称为H4），个个阳光帅气，是全校女生热捧的偶像，只有雨荨不理会他们，不屑他们的所作所为。这使雨荨和他们结下了仇，也成了全校的公敌。一连串的恶作剧，雨荨和端木及云海开始了三角恋。整个故事讲述了雨荨、端木和云海之间浪漫爱情的点滴，雨荨和好姐妹小雨的姐妹情，H4互相相挺的兄弟情，雨荨和H4的难得友情，端木和于馨、叶烁和云朵（云海姐姐）之间的姐弟恋情，个个主角和家庭的亲情等等等不同的情。这部偶像剧励志青春浪漫爱情校园偶像剧真的值得一看。


剧照：

主要演员：

张翰 饰 慕容云海

郑爽 饰 楚雨荨

Pulau Tioman

haha..i know it is very very late to post about this trip but better late than never right? =P
Actually this trip had been planned for quite a long time, at first we thought 8 of us can go for a trip together, who know..that 004 put us aeroplane, rejected our invitation. Never mind, we still enjoyed our trip.

29/5
Bought 3pm bus ticket to Kuantan. However, I waited until around 5pm just saw the shadow of the bus. Alright, thought that at last the bus arrived, could start the journey to Kuantan, who know.......around 530pm the bus just started to move. I thought the journey would be smooth already; yet, the bus was driven to another station with the reason the bus had some problem. Well, drag here a while, drag there a while, around 615pm just start our journey to Kuantan. Lastly, I only reached Kuantan terminal around 130am. Ah...what a long and tired journey to reach Kuantan.

Hentian Penyu, i feel the name of this R&R station is interesting. =)

30/5
Around 5am in the morning, everyone was awaken by Shau Ling's aunt as we thought it was already 6am. Haha..since everyone did not sleep well during that night, we also did not mind to wake up earlier. Suddenly, we received a bad news that another group of us that came from Penang most probably could not reach Kuantan on time. What to do? We had to head to Tanjung Gemok Jetty seperately. After breakfast, we departed to jetty on 7am and arrived on 930am. Luckily, the group from Penang reached jetty before 1030am too. Finally, a group of 12 of us reached Tekek Village, Pulau Tioman safely after 2 hours with a ferry.

Tanjung Gemok, Mersing Jetty

The purple ferry we sat to reach Tekek Village, Pulau Tioman.

Tekek Village, a peaceful village.

工作

呵呵~ 说了不要再当promoter，但是就是没别的更好的工作，只好答应了。
是卖 XXX 会员卡，薪金还不错，而且只是 12pm 到 8pm 而已。
可是叻，还没开始到今天放工就问题一大堆。
第一，agent 要我家地址，因为要寄制服和 free gift 给我。=.=
还是第一次听到 agent 要寄衣服和 free gift 去 promoter 家~ 就算 agent 不能到现场，也因该寄去那家店吧?
ok 算~ 寄来我家就我家。但是，到了星期四 430pm 我还没收到任何包裹，就已经大概知道星期五肯定没衣服和 free gift 去开工了。好心提醒 agent 已经这么迟了还没收到包裹，很大可能会在星期四都收不到，要他想一想 plan b。不知是 pos laju 的员工太会说话，还是 agent 太容易相信别人，他竟然相信 pos laju 员工说邮差还在我家那一带派信 (那时已经是 5pm)。好吧，为了让他死心，我 8pm 再 sms 告诉他，8pm 了我还是没收到任何包裹，邮差因该不会这么迟了还工作吧！
最终，还是 plan b。可是，他还是不死心，说星期五早上要打电话给 pos laju，再次问他们星期五我会不会收到那包裹！我的天~ 我已经不止一次告诉他，吉兰丹星期五没做工！

死心？

倒数77个小时（从我开始写这篇东西算起~）就可以搭巴士回家了~其实算蛮快了；不过，
这70多个小时会过得非常痛苦......因为还得面对两张考试~
今早又考玩一张，感觉非常糟糕。不敢想象后面两张会“发展”得怎样，毕竟这三张，今早那张我比较放心。怎知.............咳............
是我对自己的期望太高？太看得起自己？我不懂~我只想考到好一点的成绩~（虽然大家都说好成绩不代表什么。）不过有好成绩对我来说是一种安全感~对未来的安全感~
早上考完后，以为会非常的伤心，会像再上一张一样，失望到想哭~不过，失望归失望，我竟然一点想哭的感觉都没有~是我已经心灰意冷了吗？还是我潜意识里已经对这三科完全死心，完全不在乎了？
才第二学期叻~我就已经这么的不堪一击~以后的六个学期，我该怎样挨下去呢？CIMA还该不该拿呢？会计这条路还该不该继续呢？我真的没方向感了~
在此，想声明一件事..........我没你们从我表面上看起来的那么坚强！

tension!!!!!!!!!

Aaaaaaaaa..very suffer arrr…..
first time feel so suffer and tension during exam, even during SPM and STPM I also did not feel so..
another paper was over, but I think the result will be quite bad. hmmm… the last 3 accounting papers..haiz..speechless…
don’t know why, I feel that today everything is not smooth. This make me suddenly feel want to cry as loudly as I can but the tears just keep rolling in the eyes, can’t drop.
thus, decided to take dinner earlier so that can watch drama earlier. (as you know, usually i will cry while watching drama.) who know, after watch for 2 episodes, not even a drop of tears roll down from my eyes!!!
I just want to cry to release my tension, why don’t let me???!!!!

anything that can release my tension??anyithing that can make me feel better??or anything can make cry???
now need face my account note again……………………………………………………….

laugh with tears in heart~

After 3 subjects of exam, feel a bit down because i don't think i do very well on this 3 subjects. By the way, i still hope that i can get an A on these subjects because these 3 subjects are my hope to maintain my CGPA at a higher grade. (i still hope i can get at least dean list for few semesters.........)
Another 4 subjects are coming in 4 days, have zero confident to get at least a B on these 4 subjects. hmmmm..what can i do? Keep on study? Yet, when i see those pass semesters' question, i really have no idea how to do it. Suddenly feel so disappointed on myself. Why can't i be as brilliant as others? Why can't i understand all of these in a faster speed? haiz.....
Hope i can study finish every chapter before i go into exam hall.

However, in this suffer exam period, there is still something that can keep my chin up. haha~
During this exam period, i will browse one of my friend's blog whenever i online. Why? Because her blog has an ads that counting down when is my last paper of exam. haha.... is really happy when seeing the number keep on decreasing but in another way, it means that the toughest time is already around the corner --- the 4 toughest papers in this semester.
Next, warm, happy and lively atmosphere reappear again! I hope this situation will keep on going endlessly.
Moreover, i want to shout :" I AM SO DRY!!!!!!" can my roommate and friends 'donate' some 'water' to 'moisture' me? hahahaahah... At first i thought only that 2 people will always hanging on the phone but this action already infected my roommate. Every 2 or 3 days sure hanging on the phone for about 1 hour and the most important is she is speaking in CHINESE. (she usually speak cantonese with her parents. Think yourself. =P) When we ask her, she is will keep beating around the bush. aiyo, this is a happy matter, why not share with us, 'moisture' me a while. hahahahaha.....(she sure says me creating story, but it is REALITY!!!!! XD)

Alright, is time to continue my study again. I want to get at least A- in this 4 subjects. pleeeeaaaasssseeeeee...........i want to maintain my CGPA. hmmmmm....

不甘愿！

ya..you dont want to blame us for the spoil of cheongsam..but you want me to vomit out RM100..

ya..you give me time to think of the amount..but no matter i think for days, weeks, months or even years..i still need to vomit out that RM100..

ya..your fest account is negative..dun have any revenue..you need to vomit the money among yourselves..so i need to vomit the RM100 for you..

ya..your image has been spoil due to this incident..so i need to vomit out the RM100..but how about my image? i pay this money mean i indirectly admit that this is my fault..your image is spoiled..mine too!

ya..seniors are very angry because of this..said we all have the responsibility to bear on this incident..so i need to vomit out RM100..

ya..although both of the cheongsams spoil at the same place..is still have the probability that we spoil the cheongsams separately..so i need to pay the RM100..

conclusion..no matter i show how many evidents that i dont spoil the cheongsam..i still need to vomit out the RM100 because i am the performer..i wore it before..i wash it before..

thus..keep back your sorry..i dont need it..your sorry mean NTH! this just show that how fake you are..

never mind..RM100 right? buy less 2 or 3 clothes only lo..

i treat it as 破财挡灾! 

i not not able to pay this..but is very 不甘愿 !!!

这个死猫，我啃不下！！！！hope the person who tear the cheongsams can walk properly..eat properly..drink properly..sleep properly..I WISH!!!!

裙脚的破我还可以接受~可能真的是我弄破，虽然彩排时我就发现它破了，不过我在先前并没动过它,只放在橱里~我还可用一些不是原因的原因说服我自己！不过决不啃撕破旗袍这罪名！！！！！！！！！

痛~

难过、伤心、讨厌、憎恨、生气等等等............
都不比心痛来的更痛心...................................
算了~太多事情是连自己都控制不了...
很多的不堪一击都不是表面上看得到...
发生了，就如燃烧中的火，遇上了汽油，越烧越猛~

就算一桶桶的水倒下去，也只能扑灭一部份，一边熄了，另一边又开始燃烧....
就算幸运的全部扑灭了，还来不及降温，又烧了起来......

一架飞机--砰！911事件就这样发生了......
地壳一摇--唦！地震、海啸一起来......

太阳一热--滴！冰山融化......
连世界大厦、地球都那么不堪一击，还有什么可以耐力惊人？
要是你想到请告诉我，我倒想知道。不过得附上有力的理由，不然我因该找得到理由推翻~

珍惜当下~凡事不要太绝，留自己一个后路还是比较好~
己所不欲，勿施于人~ 要记得站在别人的立场想想~
批评别人？我还没资格~因我还做不到这句话~

很多话还是放在心里较妥当~~

uneasiness

"just stop thinking of it..that just a wrong feeling....."  i keep saying this to myself; yet i can't just ignore the feeling of uneasiness and the weird and down atmosphere. who am i? i am just ONE of your friend or i am just nothing! i can't change your mind. i know i don't have such a big effect.....by the way, i hope it's just a wrong six sense from me.......

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received a forwarded sms few days ago. i don't know who is the sender as i don't have this number in my contact list. i replied and ask who are him/her but i didn't receive that person's reply. some names appear in my brain that time. he is among them. i hope this sms is not forward by him. although the anger already disappeared; yet the hatred still there or should say there is still a large amount of dislike..hahaha..REMEMBER you aren't my enemy, you aren't my friend, you are just a stranger that i dislike or hate............

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today is Chap Goh Meh. girls we should throw mandarin oranges into the river. XD  when went back to kl for celebrating chinese new year, my uncle asked me about the issue of boy friend. i told him that i don't have any market in university. he said he will listed me in bursa so that i will gain a lot of market!!! hahahahah......i nearly laughed until fainted!!! anyway, chinese new year for 2011 already come to an end, hope this rabbit year will be another great year for me! 

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quite a busy week for me after return to university. dance performance practice, workshop, korean language class, assignments, tutorials......and the middle sem exam is just around the corner. need to start my study already. anyone can give me some motivation?

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need to edit my chinese new year photos already. if not i will just keep postponing and my cousin will start nagging me. hahaha..hei my dear cousin, i will edit NOW..stop pressing me ya......=p

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one more, i feel that my english has lagged behind a lot. need to improve back my english. anyone willing to talk with me in english? i think nobody want to answer me.....haha..

happy chinese new year

have a lot of idea to post a new blog; yet not in the mood of writing..haha..

by the way..HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR of RABBIT!! may everything things go well in this year~ good luck!

random~

aiks..can't watch the One Million Star live broadcast..i want to watch Nicholas Teo!!!!saw one of my friend posted some videos of the competition from youtube in facebook..(wao..who so efficient and effective?) BUT!!!!!!stupid UUM wifi can't load youtube..haiz.....need use pps to watch already when go back for CNY..
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one more thing..these few days can't log in gmaill..don't know what's happening on this stupid UUM wifi..want to comment on friend's blog also can't..at first going try to design my blog few days ago..yet, end up doing nth..now using broadband just can log in..hmmm..uum ar uum..why you don't let gmail run?
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my eyes are collapsing now..continue the other day..night!

p/s: hooijie and pooisan still busying cropping photo..hahaha..

a you~

tonight, i opened  my facebook a bit late as i had my dinner quite late..but then your name appeared unexpectedly in my facebook notification..don't know why..i feel a bit happy about it when knew that you see my post..
hmmm..i know nothing about you..even your full name i also don't know..know a bit of your info through fb only..recall back..that time had 2 people who like my comment..but i added you into my friend list..unexpectedly you approve my request..actually i didn't put too much hope that you will accept my friend request as your friends in your friend list is quite few..not even 200 people..
after that we have zero communication..but i know that you very less on fb..because you would just reply your friends' comments after quite a long time..our first 'communication' was about malaysia and hongkong currency..haha..i really feel funny about this..because i not really know about those currency matter..
well..hope that we will still keep in touch although is once in a long time..i will keep 'roaming' in your profile too when i am free..haha..oh ya..if not wrong, saw your older post stated that you finish your CPA..mean most probably you are working now..so..all the best in your working..and don't forget take care of your health ya..=)

an unexpected new blog

first time feel free to write something here..hmmm..i think about 3 years already i didn't write any post in my friendster's blog..actually i thought of create a new blog in blogspot very long ago..just i am LAZY..but lastly i am forced to open an account due to my IT subject..so..do not wish to waste this blog..i will treat this as my new blog then..